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Magnolia's Life Recycled
I thought long and hard about it and found that I actually have 2 issues when it comes to creating. My first is just as Jacqui said in her Facebook post: "Have Courage To Take The First Step".
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Part of my hesitancy to begin, is because I've jumped into the art world with both feet and am having to learn as I go. There are probably processes and procedures that would help me (for instance: getting better-organized, or pre-planning my paintings)... but because I am relatively new to this whole world, I stumble my way through creating. The idea of pre-planning
my paintings is just completely overwhelming. I have no idea what I should really be doing first. Right now, I draw out what I want to paint, transfer it to my silk, and then begin painting in no specific order.
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However, once I begin to create I enjoy the process until I near the end.... this is where my 2nd issue appears. And somewhat ironically, this issue causes me far more problems that the first issue!
When I near the end of a project I often find myself freezing.... so much so that I will often have to walk away from projects for hours or even days (and on really big projects - sometimes I just walk away and can't seem to come back and finish it). It took me a long time, but I finally realize it's fear that stops me.
Fear that I'll ruin it when I try to finish it...or fear that it won't be what I want it to be. Interestingly, it's not fear of what other people think. .. but instead it's that I've set such a high expectation for myself...that it is almost impossible to meet it. For me, finishing a project can actually be more scary than starting one!
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Took me a VERY long
time to finish and I
In the end, I know I just need to get it done. To accept that it will be what it is... and that ruining it isn't the end of the world (even if it will piss me off). I have no silver bullet, no quick answer or solution.
All I can think of are the immortal words of the Nike ad campain - JUST DO IT!